i think i’m going insane. i think about you all the time. i wonder what your’e doing and wishing you were thinking about me. when i think i finally have everything figured out you turn the tables on me. i just don’t know what to do any more. i seem to stupidly get my hopes up just to be let down. i am hurting myself more and more. you are showing signs that the worst thing that could happen is happening. i wish i could forget you but for some reason i can’t. iv’e tried my best but you’ve left a mark in my mind and heart. it hurts to see you almost every day, but when i don’t see you, i miss you so much. i cant come clean and tell the truth, because that will only lead to chaos. if only i new for sure what you are thinking. i just need this to end and to have peace.