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i’m missing you so much right now. every time i find myself laying in bed i’m wishing you’r arms are around me. i need you to hold me as if you were never going to let go. i caught you staring at me a couple times today. you are confusing me more and more. at times i get hopeful and think you feel the same as i do, but then at times i feel like you feel the total opposite as i do. its driving me insane. i don’t know what to do anymore. my heart is getting broken. when i see you with her i want to slap you and her in the face. tried another lover to build up a wall. told myself its over, don’t know what else i can do. i cant shake you. 

i think i’m going insane. i think about you all the time. i wonder what your’e doing and wishing you were thinking about me. when i think i finally have everything figured out you turn the tables on me. i just don’t know what to do any more. i seem to stupidly get my hopes up just to be let down. i am hurting  myself more and more. you are showing signs that the worst thing that could happen is happening. i wish i could forget you but for some reason i can’t. iv’e tried my best but you’ve left a mark in my mind and heart. it hurts to see you almost every day, but when i don’t see you, i miss you so much. i cant come clean and tell the truth, because that will only lead to chaos. if only i new for sure what you are thinking. i just need this to end and to have peace.